compelled (adjective) – /kəmˈpeld/ – having to do something, because you are forced to or feel it is necessary
I am not looking for revenge, or to ruin my former lover. I am fully aware that I have hurt people. I don’t wish to hurt anyone further.
I am not looking for punishment. I don’t need your judgement. I face my own judgement every day when I look in the mirror.
I am not looking for validation. I don’t need to know your story, however similar it is to mine. I don’t need your understanding or empathy.
I’m not looking for redemption. My actions were unacceptable. I am aware of that. But, I know that I have grown from this, and therefore found my own redemption.
I am writing this because I felt compelled to tell the story. I wanted to set the story free… because not all secrets should be taken to the grave.
This is my story… the mistress’s story.